Sunday, July 02, 2006

SHUT UP!!!... And let the Lord fight your battle for you!

I’ve been on this self pity trip lately. Just got down to realising a particular relationship had no future. I knew it from the beginning, but deep down I wanted to believe it would happen, and so I stuck on. I got nowhere nor did the relationship, and I had to convince myself all over again, that I’d made a wrong choice.

Relationships are weird. At least to me they are. You never ask for them, they just come in to your life, and then one fine day they might decide to just walk out of your life too. With them however come happiness, and that lovely sense of belonging. It’s so nice to be needed by someone you love, and at the same time very painful when you realise you aren’t.

My life from September last year to February this year has been happy. I couldn’t have asked for more. But since then I’ve had problems heaped on problems, adding to my already problematic life. My life saw love, again, and this time I thought it was happening. But it wasn’t and I came to my senses quite recently.

As usual it wasn’t my fault, and the self-pity trip came about. I cried, and complained and tried solving the problem on my own, but nothing worked. Last week I attended the Saturday worship at church after a really long time, and the sermon spoke directly to me. I was astounded at how, the message seemed directly talking to me. The sermon told me not to try and solve my own problems, when they become too big. Instead, trust in the lord and leave it to him.

“Shut up, and let the lord fight your battle for you!”

I couldn’t have asked for more. This week, another friend sang a song during the very same meeting, and I now knew it was meant only for me…

It’s good to be lonely every now and again…
To be parted from the ones you adore…
To sit at a table for two all alone,
And take a look at the world around you…
At people with no one to go home to…
Some with no place to belong…
Others consumed by their weakness…
And another, when weak seems so strong.

Lord let me be at peace wherever I am,
Satisfied with all I have… A faithful friend,
And know I’m grateful…
‘Cause it makes me love you even more…
I know… I’m sure…

It’s good to be lonely every now and again…
It’s good to go down to defeat now and then…
To fail at some noble pursuit…
To fall short of the prize…
And find in his eyes…
There’s nothing your victory can do…
To secure higher favour…
He cannot love you more than now…
Winners and losers…
All the same somehow.

Lord let me be at peace wherever I am,
Satisfied with all I have… A faithful friend,
And know I’m grateful…
‘Cause it makes me love you even more…
I know… I’m sure…

And it’s good to know sorrow…
To be closely acquainted with grief…
To be showered with tears…
No reason to cheer…
To find Christ your only relief.

Lord let me be at peace wherever I am,
Satisfied with all I have… A faithful friend,
And know I’m grateful…
‘Cause it makes me love you even more…
I know… I’m sure…

Wayne Watson.



The song hit me right where I needed to be hit. And I thank all those who helped me overcome the hardest problem I’ve faced as yet.

Thank you Nikhil… There’s something about people with your name that makes me connect with them! : )
Thank you Santosh… Your sermon got it off…
Thank you Rahul for being in my life, and unconsciously led me closer to my Lord…
Thank you Tanya, for always being there, even though you’ve had your own battles to face…
And thank you Keerthi for trying so hard to set things right…


“I’m alone a lot. One spring Saturday in a small ‘mom n pop’ restaurant, I wasn’t just alone, I was lonely. I sat and just watched. Families together, to elderly ladies out for lunch, a mother with two unhappy babies. Next time you go on pity binge, go off and watch the world go by, and COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS”; Wayne Watson.

5 comments:

actions n words said...

:) hope this smiley makes you feel much better Porkey... cuz they've always worked wonders!

Mithraah Indiirh said...

Thank you kaanamma!!! so sweet... maybe one day you'll know who the person was ... hee hee!!

blue plush said...

swalpa chikkadu posts maadi!!!
sala sala

t2 said...

aiiyyo..wat is this...you are also a leo..vary goot.

Mithraah Indiirh said...

Yes Tiyaaa i leo too ??? : ) Which blog should i link?