Friday, October 28, 2005

The Profile Connection :P

Read on if you care...

I am begging no-one to read this. If you don't like reading profiles that say something about the person, please do yourself a favour and kindly exit my profile. If you however do care... Read on... I can only promise you'll be entertained :)

I’ve always wondered why I need to do this, but there’s never enough of a reason to do so. Profile reads are the most boring things to write… Seriously!

I mean, how much can one talk about themselves and be truthful?

But one has to eventually write one and what you see here is the product of several edits and several more considerations, negations, additions and subtractions…

Hope it does justice in getting across who I actually am to any of you…

I am 25, turned 25 on 28th July and these last four years have been four of the most eventful years of my life. I came out of one of the most painful relationships and hope to never get into any such relationship again, ever! And then in what can only be a rebound I met Mr Purrfect and ended that relationship in exactly seven days. Dating straight men is my mistake, I shall blame no one…

I am still however, a romantic and believe in meeting my true love, my Mr. Knight Inshiningarmour, who will come for me one day or the other — the sooner the better.

I look forward to falling in love again, and I know I might break my heart again, but I guess its worth-it.

I believe in love, so bite me!

It’s all a cycle and I’d like to believe like most Americans that it’s all a bloody government conspiracy, but why is it so hard for a gay man who’s come out to the whole world, to find someone worth his time?

I am not a ‘queen’, I am effeminate, but to a certain well-within-control limit. I am not a ‘butch’ either and believe me; I know I hate being on top. I am one of those boys who has it all in his head, and if we can conversate and argue and just generally be happy with each others presence, I know I can do without sex.

I want a man, a guy who knows what he wants. A man who can control me even without letting me feel controlled, who can protect me even while letting me protect myself, and most of all a man who would let me drown myself in him, literally!

I seem to be a straight-magnet and believe me straight men are BORING!

Three relationships with straight men over five years, I have nothing to regret, just that I can’t deal with such pointless flings anymore. I need to be loved as much as I love and there’s nothing wrong with that. I’m sure you’ll agree. All I’m asking is for ‘prospective you’ to be open to a relationship and to not be interested in me if you haven’t dealt with your sexuality as yet. Now, that’s not too much to ask for…

I am otherwise an ‘un-convinced’ Leo, who loves to express in whatever form it maybe.

I am a chatter-box and can talk a lot (not really an asset, but me all the same). I dance (Bharatanatyam and Meitei Jagoi) and sing (carnatic classical, and tenor in a choir). I am also a huge reader and love reading fiction as much as non-fiction. My current favourite is Alan Hollinghurst, but I also like Edmund White. I love mad books, and history is like an extended orgasm. Cultures are however my ultimate Viagra.

I am an avid traveler and love riding pillion on any bike (the rider is a huge motivation though). I love the hills (I grew up there) and love the sea equally. I hope to one day retire in some provincial hill town and lead a nice quiet life till I die (Kotagiri, where I grew up is my present pick).

My roots lie in Kerala, Tamil Nadu and Manipur and I love their respective languages and the cultures they represent. I am anti-aryan in my outlook and extremely pro-dravidian, so if that means you don’t want to read any further, be my guest.

I love learning scripts and am a self-confessed lingua-phile. Languages and their respective intricacies turn me on. For example, you can be sure I would make passionate love to you if you suddenly one day discovered the beauty of the ‘sharada seh’ in Telugu or how the ‘zha’ in Tamil and Malayalam are actually phonetically quite different.

I give a lot and expect a lot, so beware. I cannot take indecisiveness. It used to be a turn on till I realized how hard a problem it was to deal with, in a relationship. Looks do matter and I will not say ‘no’. Like any other normal person I am attracted to good looks, but that’s not everything. I can get turned on by someone who seems very interesting in my kinda way too. Male chauvinists stay away. I am a feminist trapped in a gay man’s body and I’m proud! I do not entertain married men, but bisexuals I wouldn’t mind indulging as long as they are proud of being bisexual. Fluid sexuals, I am your man!

If I’ve said enough already and you’re prompted and convinced to say Hi! Then do just that and get in touch, it’s really very easy you know… you can be sure I am much much more than what I’ve just typed here…

6 comments:

Silver said...

And you still hope not to scare them all away? :)

Best wishes and bundles of empathy.

Mithraah Indiirh said...

haha :P
thanks arjun :)
see you weren't scared...
so I do have hope...
maybe not bundles...
but yes... enough to keep me going :)
i love your love for Bengali.
just sanely bearable :P

paws said...

lol... u definitely love being the pillion rider! haha!
loved it... so you... oh n i loved the line - "I believe in love, so bite me!" :P

BONY said...

hey my romee......... i lost my hope and dreams when it comes to relationship as i have withnessed d same like u did...i hardly get that guts to dream for it ...but i have been alwaysloving someone dreaming and going for it....u will be always in my wishes & prayers...and yes have anyone ever told u that u r a darling??? ...a original darling..muaahhh.luv n hugs..cheers !!!!

Bony Mitra
(am sure u know who am i..isn't it )

देव भट्ट said...

Dreams shattered, hopes lost , loved one left but we still stand like stone pillar.

with new sun we see new dream with great hope that is symbol of life

Believe in love you are love (lovely)

Aaryadev

kris sandy said...

Defi a readable profile, have to appreciate the efforts made by u...to keep anyone and everyone at a distance....but writing between the lines wont defi work...so hoping to hear more from u and defi spend time with u..oh by the way i too beleive in love and also biting..soooo!!!!